I will miss you

My dog has passed away early this morning.

In my previous blog entry I mentioned she was greatly ill. I took her to the doctor yesterday morning but things weren't any better.
She still vomited blood, and her feces contained blood.

After she had her medicine, I took her back home. On the way, she vomited and her feces came out uncontrollably.
Finally I let her rest in her bed, cleaned her mess, and try to be beside her as much as we can.
But I didn't want to do that too much, because I knew she could sense us worrying about her, and she may try to hold on to herself more than she should be.

I wanted her to be in peace. I didn't want her to go through such pain as she already is.

Late last night about 2am, Maruko's breathing changed. She looked like she can't breathe properly. Very weak breathing pattern. Her eyes didn't move at all. She looked like she was ready to go. Yet, her heart (although very weak) thumped, and she kept breathing.

Me and mum stayed with her for a while, touching her and patting her telling her it's okay.

We had to wake up early tomorrow morning to take her to the vet (6am), so I went to sleep.

I woke up at 5:30am by the alarm. I went to check my dog.

She was already stiff.

But still warm.

She has left us.

She was a great dog. A family, I know since I was 8-years-old. She was there for our ups and downs.

You've been great.
I'm sure she is running around as much as she wants now she's free from her body.

I will miss you so much.
I love you.