I'm Alive... for now :)

I'm going to be brutally honest. I was having a very difficult time these couple of weeks.

Since last year, my mum became bi-polar (manic depression). About last June, she became very hyper active and acting all weird. At that time, I didn't know what was going on. In August, she became depressed and cried every night. I didn't know what to do. I thought time will heal her.
Around November, she begin to recover and I thought everything turned out fine.

Then, about couple of weeks ago, she became hyper active again. She was restless, buys expensive things without thinking or checking the price. Won't listen to others. Do and say things that doesn't make any sense.

She couldn't work anymore. I couldn't work either because I had to keep my eyes on her. God knows what she might have done if I didn't.
So I took her to the doctor last week and he told us that she is having manic depression, and gave us medicine that will control her emotions and bring her back the way she was.
But, it's going to take time (for the medicine to kick in, it would take about 2 weeks). That means no income till she gets better.
I'm hiding all her bank cards and credit cards right now. I hate doing this but I can't trust her with it just yet.

It's tough. I feel like I'm going through depression. I can't laugh at the things that used to make me laugh. it's hard to smile these days. all I can think of is negative thoughts. Sometimes I couldn't stand how she was acting so I yelled and screamed while I cried. I seriously thought about committing suicide just to escape from this pain and suffering. But that's not going to solve anything. I have to live with it. I feel like breaking down but I gotta pull myself together. I'm the only one she got, and same goes for me.

These couple of days she is getting better and better. Not perfectly well but getting there. Then my friend told me that a friend of hers runs a company and is looking for someone to work for him ASAP. I gave it a shot. I contacted him and had a job interview today.

I've got the job :)
Starting from tomorrow. It's a company that deals with online advertisement (at the moment they're working for Nissin, the company that sells products such as Cup Noodle), and I will be helping out with that (no, I don't know exactly what yet lol).

I know, this doesn't mean everything is solved, but it's a start.

Wish me luck

Dolphin saves whales stuck on New Zealand beach

I dunno, this story made my eyes wet :)
http://uk.reuters.com/article/environmentNews/idUKWEL1524120080313

WELLINGTON (Reuters) - The case of two stranded whales saved by a dolphin off the coast of New Zealand could be the first such case in the world, a conservation worker said on Thursday.

Moko the dolphin, a regular visitor to the coast of Mahia on the east Coast of New Zealand's North Island, became an instant hero after leading two pygmy whales that had repeatedly stranded into deep water on Monday.

"As far as I know it's the only documented instance of this happening," said local Department of Conservation officer Malcolm Smith, adding he had checked with whale stranding specialists who were also unaware of any similar dolphin rescues.

Moko, who had been visiting the beach at Mahia on and off over the summer, arrived at the beach in the nick of time, Smith said.

The disoriented mother and calf had resisted attempts to herd them out to sea, and kept restranding on the beach, to the point where Smith said the pair would likely have to be killed.

Then Moko appeared, and came right up to the whales before leading them out to sea.

"Quite clearly the attitude of the whales changed when the dolphin arrived on the scene. They responded virtually straight away," Smith said.

"The dolphin managed in a couple of minutes what we had failed to do in an hour and a half."

Smith said the whales had not been sighted again in the area.